Audrey Weasley

It feels so wonderful to have Percy back home. Only a few more weeks until we're off on a holiday. I'm sure both of our families will be a bit put out that we're not spending Christmas with them, but Christmas is Paris was too wonderful of an idea to pass up.

[Hexed to Tim]
Have you decided to talk to me again yet?

[Hexed Against Percy]

I would never admit this to Percy, but I detest the Ministry some days.

Hours of cooking and cleaning gone to waste because he's not coming home as planned.

Merlin, I am sick and tired of being alone with no one to talk to.

It appears my husband is being shipped off to the continent for a few weeks. Perfect time to escape our problems. On the plus side I won't have to worry about keeping the flat spotless, but on the other hand I'm going to miss him terribly.

It is going to be far too quiet at home.

My sister went into labor before dawn this morning. After twelve hours, I'm an Auntie.

Clifford Alexander Roper is the sweetest thing I've ever seen in my life.

If anything, he's reminded me just how badly I want a child of my own.

[Hexed Incredibly Private]

Jessica is due with her child next month and now I have to attend a baby shower for another young woman. It is becoming increasingly harder to put a smile on my face in front of people.

Perhaps I should accept that it will never happen for us. But will he still want to stay married to a woman that can't give him what he wants most in the world? Somedays I doubt it.

[Hexed Private to Tim]

Are you all right? I'm terribly worried.

[Hexed Private]
And once again we've returned to this. I spend my days in near silence, living with a man who has no interest in speaking to me. I have no one to talk to about our problems. I am supposed to have all of the answers for people. And I do. So why is that I cannot provide any of those answers for myself?

I know it's all my doing. I know that. I can't blame him for being upset, but at the same time I resent him for hating where I've failed. It isn't as though I don't want a child. Dear Merlin, I want a child more than I could ever express. I want for us to have a family together. He would be such a wonderful father.

But if I cannot give that to him, I don't know how strong our marriage will be. I don't know if he will ever be able to overlook what's missing. And I fear, deep down, that he will not be able to love him as he would be able to if I were a mother.

It truly is amazing how large a bed can feel at times. I know he is next to me, but he is so far away. All I can do it wait for the day he comes back to my side of the bed.

I'm very sorry to announce that I will be canceling all sessions for the next week. I will return to my office and normal schedule next Monday.

You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a ( whirl )